Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Hear Me Now

Hi guys! A lot has happened since my last post - again. My life is a total mess, but luckily I've had my wonderful bf and friends supporting me, and don't feel all that down at the moment.

Firstly, remember how I talked about the pedagogical studies last time? Well, after an extremely confusing first week, it turns out I can't take them this year because something about me seems to block all information before it gets to me, and I hadn't signed up for several courses, couldn't fit into the groups, and, even if I could, I actually still lacked an English course I had no idea was needed for them. Funny thing is I was supposed to take it as a summer exam but decided to skip it, thinking it wasn't that important. :_D

That meant I couldn't start my pedagogicals until next fall, which meant I was suddenly 60 credits short of my Bachelor's degree. So, after a few days of frantic running around, useless flailing, moping, bitching and drowning my sorrows in soda, I managed to cover my ass and scrape together two short minors instead of one long - though this means I'll be taking courses like "National Parks in the United States". Fascinating. I'm still hoping this one includes a trip to the US to see them personally... Still lacking some credits, but since I'm greedy and like to take random courses on ancient Greek literature and so on, I don't think that will be a problem.

That sorted out, it was time for Tracon VI - my very first full-blown convention, featuring my very first attempt at cosplay.

I was Mello from Death Note, and considering my nonexistent sewing skills (and just as nonexistent sewing machine!) and experience, I'm pretty happy with the result. Instead of the light pink burn scar Mello actually has in the anime/manga, I decided to go with the just-burned look, and ended up looking like the Terminator - but hey, at least I had a great time. :D

(photo taken by Uideo)

I was kind of tricked into this by Saara, who cosplayed L wonderfully, and our party also included Suvi, cosplaying Mikami, so I felt safe with two others from the same series. :D I gotta say, I never thought I'd cosplay anyone - just didn't think it would be my thing - but it was great, and I'm pretty much hooked, because for one weekend I was someone else, and got to forget about my own life for a moment. Not that I'd necessarily swap my messed-up life with Mello's - I like my face NOT burnt, after all XD - but it felt good to take a break from everything and live in this Tracon bubble for a while.

The best part was that people I'd never met acted like they knew me because they knew my character, and I was incredibly flattered by how many wanted to take a picture or hug me or whatever. In fact, I was deeply flattered that people recognized me as Mello at all! And of course, even if it hadn't been for my two companions, there were plenty of DN characters around. :D

Of course, we couldn't be in character all the time... but who cares, we had fun. :_D

Took our roles very seriously, too. (The biggest problem about being Mello? I don't really eat chocolate. Used to be allergic to milk, so I couldn't - and I still don't care much for it. As Mello, I had to munch on chocolate all the time, so by the end of the weekend I was positive I never wanted to see chocolate in my life again... does that make me a complete failure as a woman? XD)

While I ordered the wig for the cosplay - my first wig, too - I decided to order another one, just to give it a try. It was cheap and plastic, but I figured I wouldn't lose much, anyways. :D

It turned out pretty okay, and fooled at least some people - in fact, Aleksi walked right past me because he didn't recognize me. :___D ♥ Still, it's very plastic and gets tangled easily, so it probably won't be good for too many times. I'm still contemplating on buying a better one, but I'm a little unsure how I feel about wearing a wig... Sure, it makes life easier but it feels so much like cheating. :D Plus it makes your own hair look awful!

Like this! It looked cute enough back then, but so messy now! Well, I still like the pearls.

On Saturday, I went out to my friend's housewarming party, and was torn between dressing casual (like I knew my friends would) and getting all dolled up (like I wanted to). I decided on something in between - unfortunately, I was in a hurry, as always, and didn't have the time to take a photo of my outfit. Suffice to say it was pink and black and pretty casual, which I tried to tone up with the hairdo above.

I'm trying to get back to dressing up for school, because it makes going to school so much more fun, even if sometimes it's just tiresome. I really liked this outfit. :3 We went to see Cowboys & Aliens that night with Aleksi, and it was hilarious because come on, Harrison Ford and Daniel Craig fighting aliens? Man, I loved it.

Random photo of my breakfast on Monday, because I like to brag about my awesome boyfriend. Is there a better way to start a week than coffee, chicken salad and orange juice, curled up on the couch and watching some early morning cartoons with your bf? Didn't think so.

Unfortunately, my week went sour pretty soon after it. My eye decided to spontaneously go kaboom again - that is, the skin around it got all swollen and huge for no apparent reason, and I looked like I'd been mugged. Or like Quasimodo, lol :D I was heading to see a doctor anyway because shoulder has been bothering me, and thankfully he gave me three days of sick leave for my shoulder - at least I don't have to show myself to anyone like this. I feel like I'm bailing on my responsibilities by staying home when there's so much to do, but on the other hand, my shoulder's still being a bitch and making concentrating on anything kinda hard... The pain radiates from there to my back, my head, and down to my fingertips, though luckily it's not that bad all the time. I got some stronger med from the doctor, so I hope they'll kick in after a while, because both my studies and work include a lot of sitting in front of a desk... :3

Staying home for three days and looking at this through my window makes me kind of melancholic. It looks lovely right now, with the green and gold and red and with the scent of the rain in the air, but it won't be long before that red tree there sheds its leaves and everything will go ugly and gray. Considering what last year's fall depression did to me, I'm terrified of going back to that, and I wish it could stay like this, or that we could just skip straight to the snow... The time when nature's all naked and black and dead is the worst for me, even if it's my birthday then. I'm trying to keep the depression away by drinking lots of tea in candle light and taking the time to just relax and think of absolutely nothing important every day, even if it's only for a moment.

I feel like it's time for change again, and so I changed the layout of my livejournal yesterday, and came across this picture as I did it. I took it in May 2010, in California, back when I was slim but healthy and things were good - just before the downhill started. I think it's a lovely photo, and sometimes I just close my eyes and imagine I'm there again. ♥

Speaking of change, I feel like changing the layout of this blog as well - maybe the name, too. However, I'm totally incompetent with layouts and so on, so I'd definitely welcome any suggestions and/or help.

Also, I've been wondering if you guys are still reading this (I know some of you are, and I absolutely love you for it, though I seem to have a knack for forgetting to reply to you!) and if you are, what kind of things would you like to read about? Would you be interested in a Question&Answer post? Would you like to hear more about my life and the more or less funny things that happen to me, or are you just hoping for more photos? (I'm sorry I've been so out of style lately...) Would you like it if I posted more often with shorter entries, or do you prefer these long and picture-heavy ones? Let me know what you think!

Sincerely yours,
Henna x

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